It has been a little over two years since the Old Lady died and a long time since I’ve posted here. Looking back over the past two years I can’t say that a lot has happened in my life. The only major thing I can think of that has changed is that we purchased a house this past summer. I reckon I can’t say I’m trailer trash anymore. Or maybe I can, because from what I understand you can take the girl out of the trailer park but you can’t take the trailer park out of the girl. *just grins*
Another major thing that happened is that my best friend since junior high school passed away last February. I’ve had a hard time coming to terms with it but I think I’m on the uphill climb now.
Most of the time during the past two years I’ve been relieved that I wasn’t blogging anymore. I was doing a lot of paid posts and jumping through hoops for one particular paid blogging company and I was being treated badly by the back-biting claw-your-way-to-the-top regardless of who you step on clique of bloggers from said paid blogging company, and, since I really didn’t need the money I walked away from paid blogging and blogging altogether. Getting paid to blog about things you love is the biggest bunch of bullshit this company tries to preach. I started feeling like THEY owned my blog the way they acted by telling me what I can do, can’t do, what I can say, what I can’t say, yada yada yada. I’m not saying I won’t blog for them again. My PayPal account is getting kind of low and there are a few things I’d like to buy on the internet (domain names, web hosting, software, games, etc.) so it won’t hurt to plump it back up again. What I am saying is that I’m not going to compromise myself again for this company or any other.
Another reason I stopped blogging is that this blog and being able to vent about the Old Lady is probably what saved me from having a complete nervous breakdown. After going back and re-reading some of the posts I wrote and remembering my feelings when I wrote them I’m surprised I held up as well as I did. I needed to regroup and get myself back to a balanced state. I’ve even thought about starting a new blog but I’m not going to do that. I don’t want to erase the past. I want to learn from it.
Something else that surprises me is that there are still 21 people subscribed to my RSS feed. That makes me laugh. I wonder what they have been reading for the last two years.
So here I am again. I’m not sure how often I’ll be posting. I guess I’ll be posting as often or seldom as I want to. After all, it’s my blog isn’t it? 
